Raining Happiness

I was born so delicate
I was judged by my colour my weight my sex
What would the future hold for me
Was the question in everyone had
As I bawled my lungs off

In school teachers judged me
When my marks were below par
I was compared to the topper
To show what a failure I was

Parents were judgemental
As it was the past time of their peers
Why don’t you exercise be slim
So we can find a good suitor

Not to be left out were my friends
Like a chameleon they changed colours
Like a glue they stuck to me
When it was my birthday or I had more pocket money

In the workplace again I was judged
What background did I come from
What were my qualifications
Every aspect of mine was scrutinised
Till I lost my confidence

Marriage was the biggest department of life
Where everyone judged me right left and centre
Few compliments were paid but insults were higher
Sometimes I wondered which stock market I had entered

Today realisation has dawned it had to be me
Who had to take the reins of responsibility
I was responsible for my self my decisions after I grew up
Feedbacks judgements were just compliments
To make me grow and ponder

I thank everyone
Who has complimented and also belittled me
Every word that had come out was for a greater purpose
Which today I realise
My heart is filled with gratitude
For whoever has touched my life

Life is a gamble
Play it
Life is an experience
Savour it
Life is a journey
Travel it
Life is a party
Enjoy it
Life is full of highs and lows
Flow with it
Life is a journey from known to unknown
Unravel it
Life is full of secrets
Unveil it
Life is divine music
Start humming it
Life is only the present
Past future don't exist
Life is precious
Realise its value before 
Frittering it away|
Life is a dream a thought
Whose lifespan is short
Breaths are limited
Which no amount of money or wealth can buy
Offer gratitude Be humble Always smile
Then you can proudly say
You have lived your life

In the journey of life the mirror has been
My constant companion
Sometimes in the forefront
Sometimes in the doldrums
Sometimes my happiness has peaked
As I looked into it
Other times it has made me
Depressive and disinterested

Though the mirror is inanimate
With no emotions of its own
Yet it wields so much power
No one has ever dwelt on
As I felt mediocre when compared to
Models actresses my beautiful sister and friends
I never wasted my time looking at it
It was just a two minute peek now and again

As I started looking at the internal divine me
My glowing happy face was reflected in the mirror
Without any makeup with tiny laughter lines and wrinkles
I started accepting and loving myself

Today morning when I looked into it
I gave a big smile and said thank you to it
I expressed gratitude for always showing my true self
Never hiding any flaws or imperfections
Acceptance of self has made me accept
All my chubby fat my round shape freckles and all

When I close my eyes in contemplation
Divine light pervades me
That is the true mirror of my beautiful soul
Thank you god for creating me so perfect
So beautiful so loveable
I’m a tribute to your mirror always beautiful always divine

Many years back there lived a king
Who had four wives
On his death bed he asked his fourth wife
If she would accompany him after death
She said I am young and beautiful
As soon as you die I will find a young man
And live my life with him

The king felt sad and asked his third wife
If she would accompany him
She replied ‘Oh King I can accompany you
Only till the doorstep of this house’
I have lot of social obligations and work to do

This further saddened the king
He asked his second wife if she would accompany him
She replied ‘Oh my master I can only accompany you
Till the funeral pyre” and not beyond that

A frail voice came from behind his bed
‘Oh Master I will accompany you till death and beyond”
The king turned to see it was his first wife
He was filled with guilt for not loving her
Ignoring her blind to his pleasure of the senses

Everyone’s life is governed by these four wives
Fourth wife is wealth which changes hands immediately
When one leaves this body pleasuring others
Everyone loves her young and old

Third wife is family and friends
They are with you till you breathe your last
After that everyone is busy in their own lives and social obligations

Second wife is the physical body
Which is your companion from birth to death
Being part of all your pain pleasures and growing up
After that she also leaves you

The first wife is none other
Than the eternal soul or Atma
Which we ignore in our lifetime
She is the only one who will always be there
Now and beyond

I bow down to my Guru for making me understand
How to nurture and recognise my Self my Atma
The more I invest in this knowledge
The more happier I’ll be
In this Life and Beyond

The other day there was a two day
Sales Training Session in our Company
Topic being how to increase sales
With existing resources and manpower

The trainer had mastery over his subject
He said Reviews were the most important
From the grass root level till the management level
If possible everyday or after three days or weekly
This closes the gap and creates a smooth flow in system

This made me ponder why not apply this principle
In my everyday activities of life
Be it home my relationship with my spouse
My children my domestic help
Why not apply to the time I spend
In my day to day activities seeing
Whether what is productive what is not

This whole exercise has given me a new perspective
Its given me a sense of responsibility to my self
Which areas I can improve and in which I’m good at
How to create harmony in relationships
How to network with positivity creating an aura of power

Results seen a more confident me a go getter
To venture into unknown unchartered territories
Move out of my comfort zone easily
As my focus and vision has become bigger and wiser

Life is so beautiful so full of opportunities
Someone is always waiting round the corner
To guide me to break my limitations my inhibitions
Making me soar to greater heights
The day is not far when the sky will be my grass root level
And I will be tapping the secrets of this universe

One morning I got up suddenly
Questioning myself ‘What is passion’
All at once the brain was bombarded
With a million thoughts

As an infant my passion was my mother
As I grew up it was replaced by my father
In school I had a passion for my favourite teacher
Who used to pull my cheeks calling me sweet heart
Soon my passion became my best friend
As I grew up more my passion was my first crush
Those beautiful foreign feelings which pervaded me
I started reading romantic novels which showed me
Passion resided in the bedroom
Crushes were replaced with my first passionate affair
Memories of tender moments of passion with family and friends
Passionate encounters of the roving eye also surfaced
This made me question was this really passion

Passion played an important part in my choice of career
I was crazy about cars I was advised to do engineering
I loved animals I was advised to be a vet
I was creative I was advised to do fine arts
I wanted to make loads of money the right choice was to be a businessman
The list was endless

As my wallet became fatter passions changed overnight
I shopped only branded products rest were beneath my dignity
My personality changed with my passion
Became fit suave and an encyclopaedia of information
New friends entered my list replacing the old
Social media followed me so big was I

In an interview I said ‘Follow your passion’
Is the biggest misnomer
Living with purpose is the true answer
To keep you grounded in reality and life

Last few days was feeling so tired
The mind stressed out
I felt time was running out
There was so much to do
Choices were immense
Confusion was more
Peace of mind was at stake
Didn’t know whether I would ever
Achieve my goal

The world had so much to offer
I didn’t know what to choose
What to let go off
I wanted to make a name for myself
Wanted to do something so big
That people would remember me
Even after I left

Today I was hearing a life coach speaking
He said small changes with high priority
Would go a long way to achieve my goal
Wisdom was in his every word
Hats off to him for being so clear

Drink lots of water
Avoid the phone one hour before sleeping
And one hour after waking up
Affirmations add strength to your goals
Waking up early refreshed and energetic
Is the mantra which great people follow
To do lists and Reminders are equally important
Just follow these and see miracles happen

After hearing these gems
Mind is at peace
I’m empowered with tools
For the new dawn to begin

Till date I have been clueless
Stringing and unstringing my instrument
My song being unsung
Sweetness melody never touched my heart
Rough and barren I had become

The search for true love is yet on
Glorified by movies romantic music media
Love which is beside me I have ignored
For something intangible planted in my mind
Thoughts which weren’t mine I have adopted
Making me more miserable and depressed in time

Like a butterfly I have been flitting
From here to there trying to taste the nectar of life
Temporary sweetness I did taste
Never quenching the eternal hunger in life

I stood for a moment and looked into my inner self
Closed my eyes and revelled in the inner peace
Like a flash of lightening the message came
True love is in loving yourself
The rest a mirage

The wires of my instrument has been strung
With harmony and threads of joy
My song has taken shape
With beautiful notes floating by
I smile to myself as I hear the music echo by

With birth boundaries are created
Norms and conditions are outlined
Discipline is inculcated according to the times
Schools are short listed according
To the power you wield and your healthy bank balance

Children rebel as they turn teenagers
Becoming embarrassed with the continuous mothering
Instructions being issued every second don’t do this do that
Creating a conflict in the growing mind

Choosing a stream in college was never more confusing
So many advises so many examples
Each leading to create impressions in the tender mind
Creating more damage than good
Making the child run wild

Opportunities are now dime a dozen
Creativity rules the roost
Innovation and focus are the master keys
Being consistent and persistent the master weapons

When I look around I’m shocked to see
Everyone is fighting the current of life
No one seems happy with the choices made
Other pastures more green and beckoning

Falling Rising and making mistakes
Is a healthy sign of being a human being
Be proud of yourself of your experiences
That is what will make you shine

Flow with the current my friend
Your energy will be conserved
Your life raining with happiness
Even if your choices have been wrong
They will make you more wiser
A man of experiences you will be called

Was reading an article in the morning
Which triggered this thought in mind
Am I doing something creative
Which I can leave as a legacy behind

Everyday I go to a routine job
Interact with the same old employees
Never challenging myself out of my boundary
Safe and secure in my cubicle shelf

There is nothing wrong in this lifestyle
We have to give sometime to ourselves
To tap our creativity
To hear our inner voice

Creativity will make us relaxed and happy
Be it cooking painting music or writing
Even if that is too much to do
Associate yourself with people who do

Creativity leads to expansion
Expansion is the divine consciousness
It is the key to infinity to freedom
Which we were born to experience

Lets all leave a legacy for generations to come
E mails will come by the dozens marked important
Sent to the trash after a few seconds
Lets all find our creative inner voice
And do what gives us joy